hiatus

I want to update but I don't know what to say. I don't know how to summarize everything that's been going on, not that much has been happening, but it's all over the place. I have been working on some things and not working on some things. 

I have been staying home a lot more...so not much is going on romantically. When you sit at home, excitement doesn't exactly bang on your door, even though you wish that it would. 

I have not been working out as much as I would have liked. Trying something new as far as working out...a little bit of yoga here and there. So far I've been 3 times, and each one was just okay. I am certain there are good effects to Yoga and I am determined to obtain them. 

I am still not enjoying my job. I have still not found another one.  I interviewed for my dream job but I didn't proceed past the interview with the hiring manager who was but a girl. She started working in 2006 and now she manages a whole division. How do people luck out like that, in a mere 5 years, you're already a manager?

My days are still filled with rejection emails and it's disheartening. I often ask myself, am I doing what I want to do for a living? Is there something else I should be doing? Is there some place I should be living? Am I where I am supposed to be at life? In a going nowhere job, living in the South by myself?

That's the update. More yoga, more job hunting, more pounds gained, more rejection emails. No man. 

But it's only February. 

Prefer to Be Me

I had a conversation recently, misunderstanding of sorts with my last single girlfriend. I use the term "single" loosely because at every point in time she's entangled with someone or making judgments on you for doing the same. But after many failed attempts at trying to get me to go out with her, she asked me blankly, "You must enjoy going out by yourself, don't you?"

At the time I had never really thought of it that way but...yeah, I guess. I don't choose to be single. Gosh, I wish I could stop being single. I've been single so long it's DEFINED me. And, I have gotten kind of used to it. It gives me a better peace of mind when I go out. Yes, of course.

I think we would all enjoy to have that riotous group of girls, a lá Bridesmaids that you can take in a movie with and down shots with in rapid succession. We all want that somewhat, but at the end of the day, after so many of those, and having gotten to a great age, you just think I don't need this. Because with the laughter and the fun, there's also the drama, loads of drama. And we could all use less of those.

Take this girlfriend of mine, though lots of fun, has her issues. And I am sure I have my own issues, too, but I am the one telling the stories here so it works best with me. I know I am not perfect. But it was always one thing or the other with her whenever we would go out. I would let her pick the place in an effort to be accommodating, and she would complain about her own venue! She would complain so much that management would be involved, and they would explain the rates on the check or according to her the "blahness" of the food (which she so carefully devoured), she would cause a scene, quite an embarrassing evening. If it wasn't that, then she would complain all the way home. "Oh, how I hated that place." I would think, but you picked it. Can you imagine if I had picked it?  That is just not my style, not for a night out anyway.  

There you have it. To answer her question, "Yes, I actually do. I prefer to be me." I think we all need to have that peace of mind that comes with being solo. 

Just saying...:-)