Saturday, May 21, 2016

When I'm With You




I hate that when I go to Lagos, I have to stock up on items (food and otherwise) that you can't seem to get in PH. 

eg: Brown rice, whole wheat pasta, linguini pasta, Gelato, waffles, MAC makeup...so many. It just pains me, like I'm doing some peace mission in a 3rd world country - I come home and stock up before heading back to the peace mission.

The sad part is I cannot seem to get a job that pays me as much as my current company in Lagos, so I can eat my cake and have it. Those simple combinations evade me. Those simple combinations you pray for and God just finds it hard to answer you. So here I am. I travel to Lagos at the drop of a hat, used to be once a month, now bi-weekly, just so I can deal with life, take a breather, inhale, and then of course, feel like I am not doing a peace mission in an angry part of the 3rd world country I ended up in. 

It's my birthday in 2 weeks. I think of what usually transpires during these final 2 weeks before my birthday. I plan my birthday vacation. For the last 3 years birthdays I haven't been able to really do anything...fun. The big 4-0 was spent with people I no longer speak to, and same with the big 4-1. Now I am asking myself what do you do when you just moved back to your country, now live with your depressed somewhat clingy single aunt in an angry 3rd world country in a job that's [insert my feelings here] and you're about to turn 42, and your last couple of birthdays have been spent in cities like San Diego, Santa Barbara and of course, Vegas. 

This is the hard part of living. This year..I suggest spending my birthday with me. Not with all those people that I don't talk to years later. Me. Because I'm my best friend, and the best birthdays have been blessed with me.

When I'm With You
I Hear A Song That Makes Me Laugh
And Smile To You
When I'm With You
I Feel So Free
I Feel That Love
Is Going To Take Control
When I'm With You
It's For Real
What I Feel
When I'm With You 

Friday, May 06, 2016

Then Let 'em Leave



This extract is from a poem by Warsan Shire...The poet who was quoted in Beyoncé's Lemonade

I gravitated towards her poetry last summer on Instagram. And I'm pretty sure this image was shared on this blog or on my #GooglePlus page. It's a bit ridiculous how people have an overwhelming sudden reaction to words right after a celebrity's sworn by it's healing power. Nevertheless, we celebrate their indoctrination into the church of affirmative poetry. 

Point is...words transcend. They cut through chapters, pages in your life no matter the gender or space in time. They inspire, unearth truths, massage hurts. 

For me, these words meant something last summer. For Beyonce who knows when...for you, hopefully now. It ties with our new theme explored recently on the blog on Loving, Losing, Rejection, Affirmation - that you are better than the result of your sour love affair. 

If they want to leave, by all means, let 'em leave...because we can do solo all by our pretty little selves.

#AnitaWrites #Poetry