New Year...Same Woes
Four days into the New Year.
Haven’t really taken the time to isolate my thoughts, goals or whatever for the New Year, 2026.
I know everyone goes, New Year, New Goals, New Me, New Attitude, etc. But I have not really been like that about the New year, about any new year. It’s always around my birthday that I start resetting, putting some plans in place. New Year signifies the end to the Holiday Season which to me is the proverbial season of suspension or disassociation from the myriad of problems and just live like there’s no life outside the club or your bed. It is truly the Most Wonderful Time of the Year.
It was such an emotional New Year for me.
One, this is my 3rd festive season without a job. So there’s that. Needless to say, I was broke. The first year (2023) I wasn’t broke, the last year (2024), I had some sponsors. This year (2025), it was just me. With a rental increase looming in the year ahead. every time I thought about that rental increase, it made me not want to get out of bed. There was really nothing to look forward to. I spent more days bed-rotting than I did partying. And when I did party, I put the videos and pictures up so everyone thought that was how I rolled on the daily. Not so much. Most days. I didn’t really see the point. I know I talked about this last year in my Christmas update. I do not see what folks are so lively about this time of year. 2025 was not that great! We have companies (at least 2 that I can think of) owing their employees salaries months in arrears. Myself included. This means business is not moving in certain instances. Companies are not even taking out facilities to pay their staff maybe cos they do not have good credit. We have all that existing and more and yet everyone wants to party like it’s 1999. Plus, drinks and cocktails are starting to be priced according to the USD FX rate like we live in a stable economy.
Had a very emotional crossover.
I don’t know how the folks that go to church do it. I crossed over in the club a couple of times and let me say those were not so good years. I stayed home and prayed and meditated and it was a lot. It was very “heavy” for me. Then, got up 5 hours later to get ready for church and a very long day “out of the house”. As I spent every penny on my New Year outing, I prayed that God would find me a way to make that money back, to stop dipping into my savings, to pay the rental increase that is looming, to be resourceful, Naira cutthroat resourceful. With all that heaviness, I have just sunk into a state of despair, burying my thoughts into doom scrolling people’s fascinating lives on social media.
Needless to say that I have now promised myself a much lighter fun-filled escapism crossover. The heaviness can wait, life is heavy enough as it is.
Let's revel in some glitz and glam for one more night.
