Exposition of Anita's Imagination

I wanna be like all these middle-aged women that have super hot bodies brought on by their obsession with being health conscious. 

They attend yoga and pilates twice a week, eat only health foods from Whole Foods Market, drink smoothies for lunch with killer abs and throw the most awesome dinner parties in their apartments, attracting a good looking crowd and their place is just awesomely perfect with furniture pieces from the distant lands they've visited. Most importantly, they have a career and a hot boyfriend who speaks five languages with whom they travel to exotic places with every quarter. Today it's the Himalayas, tomorrow Morocco, or Iceland. Awesome middle age life. 

I want to make being middle aged much better than my uncertain 20's, especially the latter part of my 20's. (but that's another entry).

Free Wonder Woman

Hippie Flowers illustrative of the Free Spirit

Sometimes I wonder how to adequately define a free-spirited person such as myself. 

A free spirited person for me is someone that loves freely without filter. This person does not live by the love rules and lets love take its rein over their hearts, minds, brains and most especially, their bodies. I open up my heart freely and most times, I expect it to be broken. I carefully consider all the cons and even with all of them in mind I still open up my heart. Fully aware of the risk, I do it anyway just to have the thrill of the experience, the excitement of the adventure, the gift of the scintillating present. It’s this awareness of subsequent failure that makes me seem like a fool for love. It’s this knowledge and guise of being a 'lover of life' that makes the world seem like they misunderstand my actions. It makes me stand alone, and it makes it impossible to find love as it most often escapes me and I get intentionally used and abused, while I hopelessly aim to seek out love.    

So along with every “I told you so” in the book I counter with “I know.” I saw the telltale signs all along and I chose to ignore them. I also chose to believe that my rational mind was interrupting my free-spirited one when it was presenting me with the cautious signals. I also proffer that the world will not understand how my mind works. Why? Because we have not learnt to love, freely, openly and wholeheartedly without question or restriction. I say this and I hope inside me that one day I may encounter that one person, just one, who will not take my complete and utter openness to love for granted, who will learn to love, appreciate and accept my kindness, openness, freedom and willingness to love, and who will make this free-spirited one a supremely and intoxicated loved one. I hope that there is that one for me, for all of us free spirits. 

Let's all hope that as we live out our single lives that our quest for a divine love shall come to be. 

In the interim, let us continue to live and love as freely and rambunctiously as possible.