exceptionally rough week

It was an exceptionally rough week for me at work. This is the first exceptionally rough week I've had within my two months of working there. And I can only hope it is not the beginning of bad things to come. To top it off, I took this afternoon off so, I bet there'd be a million and one items waiting for me when I arrive on Monday.
However, it felt good to get out of there early.

In other news, I am having a dinner party on 07/07/07. My first. Hopefully not my last. I invited just enough people to fit into the number of dining table chairs I have. One thing i am afraid of is that no one will show up, or that they will find my small apartment sucky and that will be the end of that. But it was worth a try.

In news that seriously concerns me...

I am turning into a materialistic person. Like material things need to fill the void in my life.

I am considering moving. This will be the second time in a row. At the time I viewed this awesome loft that I couldn't afford in this awesome part of town it seemed like such a good idea. Then, I saw another somewhat similar loft but much much smaller, without the stand-up shower that I have been looking for, (no washer and dryer either) and it seemed like such a good idea to fill out the application, etc, about 2 hours ago, now that I think about it, (sober) it doesn't seem like such a good idea anymore.

Two dreams will come true if I move there. One of them will be to live in this part of town that I have been dying to live in. The second is like a combo dream. When these lofts were sold at first, I so wanted to buy one but I couldn't afford it. Now, they are available for lease. And I hopefully wish I can afford to live there. But with the new car and the new insurance payment, I am just strecthed out way too thin. Plus, the cost of moving. The cost of moving is astronomical. I am still bruised from the $700 I had to pay the last time. This time I will hopefully have fewer items, but either way, the cost is just astronomical. I don't know. God help me decide.

I just wish I didn't have the pre-existing problems that I have. I just wish this was my permanent home. I just wish I could become the attorney I have been wishing/dying to be.

Some other dreams need to come true.