To Not Bar is the Answer...For Now

So I answered my own question. I decided not to Bar...for now. And that's all I am saying about it. There was a time I wouldn't tell anyone about my plans, not even my journal; it was meant for only myself. Now, I am just so open mouthed. I told everyone about the Boob job before it happened. And I suspect that's why I hit a lot of road blocks along the way. Then, of course, the Bar. So not a peep. All I am going to say, it is not to Bar for now. But hopefully there would be a Bar license by the time I turn 35.

It was a not so exciting Easter. As a matter of fact, it's been a not so exciting month. Because of the boob job I haven't worked out, and I haven't been reading, even for work. And I am getting out of it at work. I don't know if it's post-vacation depression, or the inevitable one-year itch. But I am not understanding what I am doing anymore and that saddens me, and work is a glorified mess. At least it was last week. My only consolation was the upcoming Easter, and that just came and went so quickly, I hardly even noticed.

I have to think of a plan though. I cannot spend my evenings watching TV, or browsing restaurants, or just doing nothing. There has to be some kind of plan in place. I cannot let this year go by just like last year, without achieving something solid. Something that will advance me. One thing I did was get the boobs, then, what next? It has to be intellectual. I am tired of asking people without Master's degrees every single question, I should be able to know the answer to these questions...with time, I should. I shit you not. It's embarrassing, that I do not. But maybe I was not supposed to be a lawyer, maybe I was supposed to be something else. Maybe the grand plan is for me to finish off my screenplay and try to do something with it. But I haven't written in such a long time, and writing now seems like a chore, even this journal seems like a chore, see how often I update.

But there has to be a plan. I have to think of it, and I promise not to tell anyone when I finally figure it out.