Friday, November 21, 2008

why do you come to me?

I dreamt about "attorney" guy last night.

I know, I know. Him again.

Trust me I was just as shocked as you are reading this when I had it. Usually your dreams encompass what you have been thinking about, or the last movie you saw, or something very recent. My thoughts of him were not recent. None at all. So this came as a shock to me.

It was not a good dream too. I dreamt that he wanted to show me his latest squeeze, some floozy, very petite girl with the short shorts in the middle of the day. He brought her to my house (my house was more like a mansion in the dream with acres of land) to show her off. He broke in, woke me up and standing over my bed with a tight grip on Ms. Floozy, he started cursing at me. She, Ms. Floozy had to stop him from going all irate. He said how much better he is doing now, financially and otherwise with Ms. Floozy and how everything is just honky doory A-okay. I had just woken up, in the dream, so I was still as baffled as I am now just thinking about it. I kept saying, what is he on about, and how the fuck did he get in here, i.e. inside my expansive mansion. It was a stupid dream.

In between I asked for a redux, in the dream...I know. It gets weirder and no, I didn't drink yesterday. And in the redux I stopped him, the other me was standing behind him just before he woke me up to start his rant. And I said, "Before you start ranting, and I know what you are about to say, I just want to say one thing..." Ms. Floozy, surprisingly excused us to have our talk and then I began. I said, that surprisingly I don't hate him 100%, I hate him 90%, so there's still a 10%chance inside me that still likes him and that 10% feels that we can be friends and he doesn't need to do the rant because I am not his enemy and I am just maybe 10% jealous of Ms. Floozy. And believe me, everyday I hope that the 10% dwindles away so it can be a full complete 100% no-go area with him. He was stunned at my admission and then, I woke up.

Some crazy psychotic stuff, aye.

I just keep thinking, why does he still come to me? I thought we were done with all this? 10% really, Anita?

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