it's unheard of

People are often envious when you return from a vacation. Co-workers, bosses especially, they start to think so we pay you enough for you to go spoil yourself by going to 2 cities. Superiors, the attorneys often think, this type of vacation is only meant for them. Them, the 100K upwards salary maker, not us, the peons who do all the work and make half as much as they do. It's just bogus hogwash that never fails to occur no matter where I work. This is my first multi-city vacation at this job so I thought they'd act different than the others.

As for me. It's always a crash from a high you thought would last forever. You think can I just hold this moment, this particular moment and let it repeat itself, over and over, can I? But nothing lasts forever. The good things are always ever so fleeting. After partying in Miami, not really partying but taking in a sliver of the nightlife (I didn't pack for clubbing, etc), I tried to go out last night and everything in Atlanta pales in comparison. Sometimes I think, am I the only one who seems irritated with this city. Or maybe my irritation with all things about me, my job, my city, my apartment always gets to a feverish pitch whenever I visit other places and see how others are living. If you can have a little bit more of whatever it is, better food at the mall, better sun, better museums, nicer people, why can't you? Why should I stay rooted to anything less?

I met 2 people in Miami. One I hoped to see again. Nothing fantastic, he's just a boy really, but maybe it was his positive naivety about life that made him so endearing, and I had to open my big mouth and say something and that was the end of that conversation. The other, well, that's a whole other story. Sometimes we build attractions for the wrong people. At least I do.

Sometimes, I think is it unheard of to move out of Atlanta, because everyone thinks of it as a place to move inwards. People leave all these wonderful culturally rich cities and come dwell in this significantly lacking city. Is it unheard of to move to New York city now, now with the economy, with the aftermath of 9/11 still in effect, is it unheard of?