So I decided to switch things up a bit and thanks to the good folks at Blogger, I can. So here you have it, new website link. And now, I like myself some more.
There was a time after about 2 years of keeping this journal, it was somewhat important to me to have someone read this. To me, I suppose, I wanted people to empathize with me and my "issues." I used to get so bummed that others would keep online journals and get loads of comments, hits and in some ways some type of sponsorship deal, or at least a writing deal out of it. The latter I really wanted. I thought, maybe the UN would find me and would want me to stop whining about a job with them, and actually offer me one, even if it is a provisional one as I try to prove myself. I just thought that would be the case so it was important to me to have people read me. And I took time out to read articles on "How to get your Blog Noticed," and such other "Get Your Blog Published" articles that may be floating on the web. And I even implemented some of the tips that I found. It was important to me to get something out of this daily whine. Yes, I know I whine, but seriously who doesn't. The world isn't perfect and my life isn't. It was important to me to make something out of it and not just use it to entertain the privileged, life-is-but-a-dreamboat few.
However, with everything there are mistakes. And I made them starting from last year when I decided to associate my real life self with my online self. You always want to stay mysterious just so the people you are writing about don't feel violated. That was a grave mistake on my part and even though I thought that I had rectified it by making certain assertions addressed to the perpetrators, it got worse and the "leak" so to speak had already been made and my identity was now compromised.
And since then, I made it worse by putting up personal pictures of myself, and letting people see me and know me. They didn't need to know all that, they already know enough about me from all these entries. Needless to say, things have been going downhill. It's been some accusation or judgmental comment or the other. I don't need people to judge me in my own domain! I don't need that. This is my domain. Blogger gives away this stuff for free. If you want to judge me, go start your own domain with Blogger and use it to whine, judge, criticize whoever the fuck you want. I cannot allow that in my own domain. This is my space to be, be me, be me with my mistakes, my missteps, my joys, my triumphs, my prayers, my religion, my negatives, my positives, my ambition, my progression and most of all, my obsession. This is my space to be...
So I felt an overhaul and re-direction was absolutely necessary. That's why the domain name has changed. As I said, Blogger gives away this stuff for free. And due to the power of the Internet, no one who's bookmarked the other site can find me on this one. Hopefully not anytime soon. And I am writing this for their benefit. If they luckily find this blog again, oh ye, of the privileged never-make-a-mistake-life, I have declared this my domain to be.
Be me. Bring in the era of the Be Me Chronicles.
There was a time after about 2 years of keeping this journal, it was somewhat important to me to have someone read this. To me, I suppose, I wanted people to empathize with me and my "issues." I used to get so bummed that others would keep online journals and get loads of comments, hits and in some ways some type of sponsorship deal, or at least a writing deal out of it. The latter I really wanted. I thought, maybe the UN would find me and would want me to stop whining about a job with them, and actually offer me one, even if it is a provisional one as I try to prove myself. I just thought that would be the case so it was important to me to have people read me. And I took time out to read articles on "How to get your Blog Noticed," and such other "Get Your Blog Published" articles that may be floating on the web. And I even implemented some of the tips that I found. It was important to me to get something out of this daily whine. Yes, I know I whine, but seriously who doesn't. The world isn't perfect and my life isn't. It was important to me to make something out of it and not just use it to entertain the privileged, life-is-but-a-dreamboat few.
However, with everything there are mistakes. And I made them starting from last year when I decided to associate my real life self with my online self. You always want to stay mysterious just so the people you are writing about don't feel violated. That was a grave mistake on my part and even though I thought that I had rectified it by making certain assertions addressed to the perpetrators, it got worse and the "leak" so to speak had already been made and my identity was now compromised.
And since then, I made it worse by putting up personal pictures of myself, and letting people see me and know me. They didn't need to know all that, they already know enough about me from all these entries. Needless to say, things have been going downhill. It's been some accusation or judgmental comment or the other. I don't need people to judge me in my own domain! I don't need that. This is my domain. Blogger gives away this stuff for free. If you want to judge me, go start your own domain with Blogger and use it to whine, judge, criticize whoever the fuck you want. I cannot allow that in my own domain. This is my space to be, be me, be me with my mistakes, my missteps, my joys, my triumphs, my prayers, my religion, my negatives, my positives, my ambition, my progression and most of all, my obsession. This is my space to be...
So I felt an overhaul and re-direction was absolutely necessary. That's why the domain name has changed. As I said, Blogger gives away this stuff for free. And due to the power of the Internet, no one who's bookmarked the other site can find me on this one. Hopefully not anytime soon. And I am writing this for their benefit. If they luckily find this blog again, oh ye, of the privileged never-make-a-mistake-life, I have declared this my domain to be.
Be me. Bring in the era of the Be Me Chronicles.
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