Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Reminisce on "attorney guy"

I can't believe it's been a year since I loved you so completely, hopelessly, unnecessarily. I can't believe so much time has passed. I can't believe it's been a year since you charmed me so needlessly, inscrutably, effortlessly. I can't believe it's been a year since I had to deal with heartbreak as an adult, pain that hurt so much, it caused me to cut my hair off. I can't believe that type of hurt would eventually subside.

I can't (won't) believe I've aged a whole year in that time. I can't believe I actually still remember loving you. I can't believe that I may have changed? And do I regret wasting my time, hoping for you, needing you, wanting ...anything, thinking I would never get over you.

In that time what is new, I have fallen deeper in love with myself. I've realized that me is in this for the long haul so let's get used to us. I've realized that what hurts so much will eventually hurt less.

I can't believe a year has passed. I can't

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