I finally picked out the word that perfectly describes my feelings towards him, just like I found the right word to describe my conversations with my ex which were condescending. With him, they are more geared towards---obnoxious. Everything about the way he jokes with me, the way I try to joke with him, the misread statements, our unpleasant contacts in the mornings, the way he regards my stay in their home, everything about it is simply obnoxious.

Obviously some nerve was pricked at some point in our relationship I don't know when and where but once it happened my feelings towards him got scratched and I haven't been able to heal them since. This is unlike me because I try not to bear grudges or hold out any feelings of vengeance or devious deployment of any of them But this one beats all manners of human interrelations, and I wish to some higher power that I can adjust or repair or avoid a total outclash of any of these unearthed relationships.

As an example, we were eating dinner the other night outside at Helen when my teeth got caught in the meat, already uncomfortable with the bland taste of th ribs, a bee jumped into some of my masticated food, twirled in it and decided to make it his playground, He instinctively made a snide remark about my excessive use of perfume being the cause of my persistent pressure from insects. I asked, if this was a joke to get me in the mood, and he replied at once that it wasn't, with a dead serious inflection in his tone. I took it the right way and immediately the mood got worse.

Little facets of our interaction like that only compound it by compiling into something I chose to call obnoxious. Have it either way but the perfect word describes it adequately and succintly.