Truly Horrible Messed Up Day

I've found out that there's no better way to describe today otherwise saying that it sucked. Literally! I shall use short sentences to describe it as I am too beat to go into a very vivid description.

It was just one of those days that wakes you up from complacency and lets you know that it's time to keep fighting harder than you already are. I had resigned my fate temporarily since I got this new job and got this incredible pay raise that maybe being a paralegal isn't all that bad. But then in between, my new boss would say stuff that is degrading to me, or maybe I am just overreacting I dont know. She would get phone calls from other attorneys and then dash into my office and say, Hey can you call them back for me, now that I have you I cannot be returning my own phone calls. Or, tell them, that she wants her people to call their people and there really is no reason why she should be doing some of these stuff now.

Today we got a visit from the bosses. So when the boss gets bossed around, she doesn't like it. She breaks down and starts to cry. Then, I wonder this is what you put me through all day, every day, you should know how it feels on the receiving end. Then, today she got all bossy and then the bosses told her to hand over all the stuff to me, (her secretary, which is a term I refuse to be referred to by) and she said something that just stabbed me: Yes, I am too big to do the file labeling. The bosses agreed, that her duties should be restricted to the ones that her law degree requires her to do, and the petty stuff like filing, etc should be left for her "secretary."

I wonder when I went from being a paralegal to a secretary. It's just stabbing me in the chest right now, I just don't even want to think about it.

I come home and my friend calls me and tells me how everyone who I went to school with now has an LLM, or undergoing JD studies. What am I doing? Going from paralegal to a secretary?

I just don't know what to make of this.

I know I have come a long way from where I was two years ago, or even this time last year and if no one thinks I've tried I know that I have. I just don't want to believe that this is it, because there could be more. I don't know how I can obtain more, I just know that there could be more, some way, somehow.

I'd rather not think about it at all.