to take you more seriously

I made out some time today for me to actually do some work online. I haven't done that in such a long time. I don't know why, I have just been wrapped up in me, in reading, studying for my exam, and watching TV, as I try to decompress, that I haven't really done much else.

How are you? I ask. I am trying to sieve through my poetry for the best kind to put up in my cubicle. every one I seem to stumble upon seems so personal, so filled with subliminal subtext, you know when you work with people you don't want them to experience that other side of you, the one that's filled with the subliminal undercurrent subtext. You just want to be Anita, that does a good job (I wish) and stays that way. Not, someone who has a deep longing for the imaginary lust of KR, and all other stupid things that fill my head when I am by myself. So that is it.

I would like to say that I have more to say but I really don't. I think I am wearing Jay out. I knew we wouldn't be up to the whole long distance thing, I have sometime in the past, but then, this is Jay we are talking about, he has a long line of 3 week relationships. And this is me, I am sure there is something about my situation that would want to make someone run, a single lady of prime age, seeking husband material, for all those who are not husband material they would just want to run from me, not run to me. I am not surprised or disappointed, I am disappointed in other things, which don't really have anything to do with Jay, but I am not surprised at all. Thank goodness, I didnt sleep with him! *gaggles*

Okay, in other news, work is okay. I don't want to talk about that too much. But I decided this is where I want to lay my hat so much so that I am actually picking up stuff to decorate my cube with. this is unlike me. I had a whole office, and I didn't put a stitch of personal stuff on the wall, cos I just didn't like the bleeding place, But this one, yes, at least until any employment law position opens up. I lie, this is the one.


I pray for a productive and prosperous week. I pray that my mother has a wonderful birthday. God please bless her and keep her in good health. I pray that Lord protects me from myself and every other sin that is before me this week. These and many more I ask of you, Dear Lord. Amen.