I found out today why I have been so angry. It was not just the perennial loneliness that seems to be living with me and enraging me with more bitterness with each passing moment. It is sadly something else.
Yesterday, Sunday I didn't go to church. I just decided to abstain from God's house for a little while. I wasn't angry with Him even though I am a little miffed that none of my "find me a man" prayers seem to be coming true. However, the long and short is I didn't go to church. I stayed home and cleaned out my closet. While cleaning out my closet I noticed an old picture I had failed to frame, so I decided to go to Target to get one of their cute picture frames. That didn't work out so I postponed the Target frame shopping to this afternoon.
I thought it would feel easier to write this down, but it just feels worse and I have strangely lost interest. The summary is that a lady let her shopping cart roll down the hill and it dented my car badly. So now my 6 week old car, has a big ole dent in it, just because I went to Target to get a 12.99 picture frame. Doesn't my life suck! It's never or shall I say rarely good news, it's always soemthing, filled with drama, the bad kind. The kind you wonder why me, why so what me, why wasn't I saved from it, if it could happen to anyone else, why did it have to happen to me. I could do without this bad news, so why do I have to get bad news instead of good news. It just sucks big time! I had not gotten over admiring the car, the new paint, everything and then this had to happen.
I filled out a claim form in the store but I am not hopeful, why, because it's me. that's why.
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