I have not really had anything to say in the past couple of weeks. The second half of February was indeed dreadful and quick, dreadfully painful and quick, that's when you know the pain hurts it comes so quickly and undetected. Sometimes it hurts so much that you cannot quite describe it. It's just a throbbing pain that just nauseates and disillusions you. I don't even know where to start. From my traffic ticket, to the dent on my car, to my personal woes, to my job cutting me out of everything like a sore wound, or just my general distrust of people and everything they stand for. How does one begin to describe this stuff with a brave face and pretend that it is quite alright. Hmmmm...
People. I don't hate people. I just don't know if I can stand to be around them because they are so untrustworthy.
So in order not to celebrate my disdain, I tried everything I know. Retail therapy, writing, poetry, KR and GDG, and finally a little makeover. The bitterness and sense of betrayal are still present everytime I turn to look at people or even pretend to speak peaceably to them. But it was my fault for not being so guarded, now I know why KR is a hermit. People are sharks, it's like mini-satans dwell in all of them even when they don't mean to, they just whip out their fangs and suck you of joy.
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