Thanksgiving Update: Boring. Spent it with my family eventually but boring and predictable as hell.
Saw No Country for Old Men: Disappointing. Brilliant movie, excellently directed but no payoff.
I applied for the summer course and got accepted to the Hague Academy of International Law. Why you ask? The whole business of not being able to come and go from this country as I would have liked. It crushes me so much. I prayed specially for it this weekend. I even thought of asking God to grant me the ability to go. But that is a miracle beyond miracles and I have no place asking for that. I am not worthy. But it still crushes me nonetheless.
I just feel so hopeless now. Holidays are boring, my life is boring, my weekends are boring. Even the occasional drinks at the pub are boring. It's just like there is a sameness with everything and the second I try to instill life into it, I cannot do it. I would love to go to NY like I did last year, this time I have more vacation time and hopefully more money. But I cannot. It's just a numbing feeling. It's like something said, "Don't move, just sit. Still. For a really long time."
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