School of Escapism

I haven't really felt like doing a proper update since I got back from the heavenly week at the beach.

I just came down from that high with a thud. I went through last week wanting to escape my life. Thought about running away to do some volunteer work in Senegal, Mogadishu or something, feeding the kids, helping the WHO (do they still exist) just doing some humanitarian work that is not self-serving but fulfilling. I actually thought of abandoning everything, my job, my clothes, my car, my bills and my very expensive lifestyle and just going.

But I haven't.

Right now, that school of thought has been shut down... for now. May reopen sometime soon.

Now, it's the Numb school of thought (not the Escapism school). And so now, it's just sitting and waiting for some bright idea (or bright young man) to come to me.

Now, I understand why people choose to do humanitarian work. Corporate America is bullshit. And what is all the work for? For a life you don't enjoy.