lost

I feel so lost. Lost and outta my mind.

Last night I went to this wicked awesome event. I actually didn't expect it to be that awesome because it was a week night. But it was. Almost a 1000 people there and they were all good looking. And I talked to this guy. But something in his lack of interest, in his failure to ask me my name or what I did for a living, indicated he wasn't interested. And he wasn't. It just seemed so crushing. And I ended up going home by myself. I thought I'd wake up today and not feel bad. But I do. It's like sinken feeling, like I've disappeared and no one gives a hit about me. They don't give a shit if I am intelligent, well spoken, well versed, well travelled and worldly. They could care less. I seem invisible to them.