So far, 2011 seems no different from 2010, 2009, 2008... you get the point. You start these years with so much optimism and it just dies once you're in the second month, for me at least, I soon realize, we are headed into a year that is somewhat similar to the other years.
I am still single. Now more painfully so. I tried to go on a date and in the end I ended up doing the guy a favor more than me. He was all handsy, grabbing and kissing, I just thought, somebody help me from this. There should be an easier to break into getting to know someone. So no more dates. I don't know how my friends date when they don't really like the guy. Men are just groppy by nature, scary.
Since the year started here is a brief summary of my disappointments, just so you can totally grasp the extent of my despair.
1. I've received tons of rejection emails for jobs I've either applied to, or been interviewed for. Some of them have been preliminary interviews with the HR recruiter. How sad is that? You talk for about 20 minutes with some HR person who has no legal experience whatsoever, all she/he knows is that you'd be a bad fit for their "awesome" company. At least let me get through to the next round before you reject me. There was a time it was vice versa. You would interview with the hiring manager, your future boss first and then HR last to determine fit, not HR first. That's like weeding out candidates way too early in the game. Or they weed them out solely based on their resume. How mean is that? This economy sucks for employees, sucks.
2. In the interim, my co-worker has been promoted to become my manager, she is now a a vice president, presiding over me and 4 other people like me. Isn't life grand for some people?
3. I gave my notice in my apartment hoping to find a job elsewhere...so the clock is ticking now and I have 5 weeks left to make this work. 5 weeks....before I had months, but now we are really coming down to the wire. I don't know if I should just pack it all in and hope against hope and just move without a job, or try to tough it out for another year (with my former co-worker as my boss). Decisions, decisions.
I just keep thinking, the only way my life is going to change (be a little different from the previous years) is if I make the change myself. I am tired of cruising the Atlanta single scene; I am tired of moving from apartment to apartment hoping the new location will usher in anything different; I am tired of working in a job where my contributions are ignored, I am just overlooked and seen as eye candy while others seem to be noticed much more than I am. These are all issues that boggle my mind and I wish I could discuss them with someone but since there's no one, I chose to write them here.
Every day I wake up hopeful - someone would surely call me today. Every night, I go to bed without any leads, no calls, nothing substantial and I go to bed thinking, tomorrow surely someone would call. This circle continues for weeks, months, I suppose since October, slowly intensified as we get closer to my departure date. I just don't know what else to do, how else to market myself, how else to pray for a radical yet progressive change to my life. How?
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