He was just not that into me

So things came to a somewhat sad ending today.

Trouble called me this morning at 8.33am. The first call he said nothing, just asked me how I was. I hesitated for a while before I answered the call. I just knew he didn't have anything good to say. Sometime last week my horoscope told me I would gain some clarity on the confusing actions I've been receiving from a loved one. And just when I thought the week was over, there it was.

The second time he called, I was at my desk. Then he said, words that I've heard in my past but hurt each time. "I've started seeing someone and it's getting pretty serious." In summary, in the past 3 weeks he started seeing someone new and now he's in love with her. Mr. Keep-it-Lite is all of sudden in a hot and heavy relationship with someone. And it all came down to chemistry. He said his chemistry with her is so amazing and with me it wasn't...I guess he just was not feeling me. So since he's "feeling" her, he thought it was worth breaking the whole I-don't-want-to-get-too-serious rule. He said, "I want to respect what I have with her and not mess it up." While he was with me he was sleeping with other people and didn't feel the need to respect me. But with her, he wants it to be different.

What am I doing wrong? I know it all comes down to chemistry and destiny and who you're meant to be with, but seriously what am I doing wrong? Inasmuch as the conversation provided some clarity and closure, it was just upsetting. All this while I was praying for me to feel better and dealing with my inner turmoil, while God was there giving him true love. So he was probably laughing loudly while I was sulking and drinking (heavily) trying to forget him. With each tear I cried he was there meeting the love of his life and seems to be in total love bliss. How is this fair?

This would be the last time I talk about this, in June. It's been an awful couple of months. From the first quarrel on May 11th, to the heated conversation on May 20th, to ignoring my angry text on May 25th, to the cold birthday wish on June 3rd to this day, June 24th, his speech about how he is now in love with some new darling and I was just fodder for him.

I'm hoping that as the new month comes, God has pity on me, comforts me and dries my tears and helps me put this to rest. I pray that I see God's face in this chaos and that there is redemption, some type of win for me after all this, how could he be in somewhat "wedded" bliss while I was in shambles. How is that fair?