All Saints Day

I read the paragraph below sometime this weekend while sifting through some of my old work in my hard drive. I came across this paragraph I had culled from a book I was reading about 15 years ago. I assume the paragraph spoke to me so I added it to my document of extracts. I had to read it over and over to reconcile what it said, with what I was feeling. With everything that's been going on lately, the state of things in my personal life and some decisions that came to a head recently, I just decided that maybe it's time I do things different.

And that's the decision I am taking today, November 1, 2016, to do things different.

This Time Last Year by Douglas Hobbie...what depresses her sometimes: the idea that she could live her whole life without ever knowing what it's like to be herself. Alone. She knows everything about being lonely, she says, but nothing about being alone. Yes, if she's sick of anything, she's sick of being lonely but that has nothing to do with being alone...She wants to evolve, she couldn't bear to think she's struck with some inescapable self she despises half the time. But: you can't escape that person, that awareness, even though your life changes, your circumstances, behavior, priorities change...But you don't.

I ask that this is a good month for me Lord. That the next 60 days sees God work His miracle in my life. They say when you ask with humility God responds, dear God I am giving it all I got, I know only You can get me out of this. With everything I've got, I'm putting it in Your Hands today, please guide me safely to everywhere I need to be. I pray that my miracle is on its way and that even if it not this week that I shall observe the Lord's teaching as I carry out my life this month as I await it. I pray for forgiveness, mercy, restoration and for the Lord to inspire my 'truly original" idea. Protect me from all evil and lead me through life's turmoils with Jesus steady hand guiding me through. In Jesus name I ask this of you O Lord in my life always. Amen.