Monday, May 13, 2002

The Problem with Family

My bro-in-law was trying to pull on my anger chains this weekend. 

He came to pick me up from work on Saturday after I had pulled off a 16 hour day half of it spent on my feet. Then, he drags me to the grocery store to shop for my sister for Mother's Day. Asking me in a demanding tone if I did get her something. I don't know if he could see how tired i was, or how I much needed to sit down since I had literally been on my feet all day. The worse thing was he didn't apologize for it, not even once. He instead urged me to walk faster.

The next morning I wake up and meet all of them leaving for some place, some plan he must have made. Yes, the plan did not include me. I don't mind because I don't think I would have wanted to go anyway, but still. And then, he tells my sister he discussed it with me while we were shopping, who is he kidding? He knows he didn't say a word about his plans to me. Nada! Geez! he should at least have the nerve to fess up that he didn't.

I find my way to work, come home late, and then my sister's mother-in-law compliments me on becoming an independent woman. I tell her point blank. NO, I am not. I still live with a cranky immature hot tempered man who thinks he's doing me a favor everyday he lets me live and I am turning 28 in couple of weeks with no boyfriend or special person to share it with. At my age, everyone I know was either married, with a child, or living on their own in a job they felt proud of. The disgruntled man, still clueless that he is in my bad books, says to me, "Why don't you concentrate on the things you have and leave off the things you don't have."

He should be glad it's sure as hell not Father's day because I sure am not getting him anything when that day comes. What I have to go through at my age. I shudder, I just try to be polite and not give him mouthy words to ruin his evening unless it would have come out badly for everyone. Concentrate on the things I have, how ironic?! I have a family who makes elaborate Mother's Day plans without me, forgets that I am a semi-mother to their children half the time and decide not to buy me anything, or get them to buy me something. Isn't that selfish?

I am past getting upset, I shall just file it away in my anger books and refer to it only when I chose to inspire me to work harder to be better at what I am. Whatever is left of me.

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