My Crush, Where Art Thou

I am so in the mood for some hugging, cuddling and just some general soft affection shyly devoid of the raw diggity sex right now.

Yes, I am a woman after all and I do have moments when I just want some real genuine affection being tossed down my way. I spent the whole of last night dreaming about a wedding of all people, Cameron Diaz. I think it was the entry I put on here that had her name on it that got me thinking about her. I dreamt there was this wedding that she was having that she invited only me to, and me being the dork didn't have anything to wear or how to get there. Then, my sister offered to loan me this ridiculous red dress of hers if she and her family though they do not know Cameron or any of her family, can come along just for kicks. So I had to agree, it was either that or this pink dress I had which wasn't half -bad it just didn't look as sophisticated as I would have liked to be. The worst part about it was, Cameron wanted me to be there, even if it meant being in my jeans, she just wanted me to be a part of her big day.

Why am I dreaming of weddings at a time like this? What is this dream supposed to mean?

There was this guy at work, that is semi-cute but I am like 10 years older than he is. At first he paid me so much attention, so much that it shocked me. Well, he was new so I don't know maybe he thought I was nice or cute or different, maybe before he heard I am the official bitch down there. The attention was rather bizarre, he used to want me to sit and eat with him and all, pull my hair, just petty things that no one pays to mind, and I didn't stupidly at the time. I guess maybe someone told him how old I was and he just sorta said a big NO to me and now that I am the one giving him advances--like my sister hinted, his young age shouldn't be a problem--he is so outta me right now. He doesn't as much as say HI. Yep! it's that bad. I don't know, I've totally lost my touch as to what to do with these things. What should I do, what can I do? Why should I even want to do anything?

I have bigger problems, bigger fish to fry, but it's just that initial attention he paid to me that's got me "bugging" as they say, and I just wanna know where did the touch go? I am just happy he fell out of it before we (as in I) did anything stupid, you know.

So far today. NO drama. Yesterday went by without one. And hopefully today will sail right by with its other cohort. Don't you wish every week, every single day of our lives was like this? DRAMA-LESS. I do.