Saturday, June 15, 2002

What is the ideology behind a dream where you're naked. I know there is supposed to be some kind of psychological impact about it, but I can't remember what it is. I dreamt I was starkers last night and I was so comfortable with it, which is rare because I can never be comfy with it in reality, and the funny thing is, my body was beautiful.

I haven't been doing anything out of what I normally do these days. I don't read my emails, I don't watch TV except for maybe some World Cup matches, even then, I don't watch that many, normally I would watch every single match, this time I just leaf through 'em. And I haven't been reading my emails, weblogging, or writing in general, talk less of reading.

I have just been working, working, and shopping, and a lot of eating out. I shop, work, drive to my other job, and then I eat out...not in this order but something like this. I haven't even been doing any housework, my room is filthy and my bathroom has green stains on it.

This must be a sign that I am running away from something, or avoiding the reality in something, in home life perhaps.

In between my hullabaloo schedule, I pray, I mutter words of prayer, hope and consolation to myself to sort of gear me on to thus work even harder, to maintain my sanity and to keep the faith that all things will condescend from their higher plane into the helpless palm of my hand. Some days it works, some days...I just glide through it and hope that it would happen. Most times, it doesn't. But I still maintain the horrid schedule for which my mind is now accustomed to.

Perhaps that explains my naked dream.

PS: I want...in addition to the shopping frenzy...to get some CD's: Vanessa Carlton, which I should have gotten long time ago, and Norah Jones. And a very old Nsync CD!

Shopping is now my fave pastime. I feel like these are the last days of my life (sad but true) so there really is no point to saving my money but instead I should be spending the money. Making it just to spend, living it up, not to end it.

Does this explain the naked dream?

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