memorizing

For the past month I have been reading one topic on my Individual Employment Law course outline: Discrimination. One word, a whole lotta work involved in it.

I have this saying, when someone tells me about something, a new task, a new field, or even a recruiter tries to explain job duties of a certain field, I often say to myself, "It is not rocket science. I am sure in some way, with some time I can figure it out."

This belief has made me strong to take on new tasks and accomplish them with prowess. Until I met something called Discrimination. It is not Rocket Science but it sure as hell feels like it. Wow! A whole month, and yet still I am not done. Granted the month has not been all well with everything that's going on in my life. But then, Discrimination text just will not go down with a glass of water, a glass of wine, anything at all. Geez!

I had an epiphany last weekend that that would be my last week unemployed. I don't feel that way about this week. I really don't. I wish I did. I want to. I really want to be employed. Just thinking about it gives me a headache. It's tiresome and weary.

Dear God, please let me work this out, the kinks, the battles, the questions, the self-doubt, the everything, give me strength to fight this battle and come out swinging. These I ask of you this day. In Jesus name, Amen.