test of strength

Keanu Reeves is not a big advocate of the saying 'life begins at 40'. Instead The Matrix star has revealed that starting his fourth decade last year plunged him into a period of depression.According to Female First, the Hollywood actor felt enormously gloomy when he started to brood about how many years he had left on the planet.

"It was a nightmare," he admits. "It reminded me of adolescence and it felt like an internal transformation with physical aspect, like when your hormones run wild.

"But this time with a conscious shift, an awareness of your own mortality."

The Canadian-born actor hit 40 on September 2nd 2004.

I have not lost my sense of humor, or sense of self, though I feel it waning slightly. If this is a test of strength then I have failed, if this is a test of smarts then I have failed it even more. I can't help feeling the point is, there is no point. That's the thing with faint long winded failures and pitfalls in life, in hindsight, there really never is a point, people say, in ten years you will see the point, I am still trying to figure out the point to some others, and one more comes and shows its face. There is no point. I am just as Keanu was.