It was not a great weekend, but it was not bad either. I didn't advance myself intellectually. There was simply no time to read. I went to the mall every single day during the weekend. And I shuttled half-way across the city to visit my family. Seeing my nephew is always a high point for me and reminds me of how much I want a son. He asked me in the store, "what do you have against capitalism?" Apparently, he had heard this in a movie, and just memorized it without thinking, what does capitalism mean? Hearing a 4 year old say the word "capitalism" is just so insane.
As I edge closer to the time, I wonder if I can take that leap. Can I actually register and study for it? I am so out of studying, so much so I cannot make time for it in my weekends. How busy am I with nothing that something no longer has a place in it? But then I think, I cannot chicken out now. If I do, it would be me backing out of yet another milestone in my life. I didn't drop out of the LL.M programme even when I failed to see the point of it, so I cannot drop out of this. But I am so out of it. Or maybe I want to do other things.
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