So far, not so good.
But what else is new in my life. I haven't been able to get anything moving in that aspect. And I have stopped speaking to my family. Yesterday I was researching schools in Europe and suffering from some mild escapism...oh of all the things that could be if I were to go. But then the reality of me hits me, and in an effort to suppress the sadness I just doodle on nothing in particular. I am going to see The Color Purple tonight, which is good, a celebration of artistic excellence always brings the much-needed jolt to your disparate mindset. Hopefully I can treat myself to dinner, with or without any money for fancies being available. Fine food and theater is such a match made in coupling heaven. However, this coupling may not be possible...there have been far too many treats for a life filled with despair, lacking in triumphs, and riddled with unknowns. Far too many treats...what am I even celebrating...maybe there's a celebration in the horizon and I am ushering it in, slowly, very slowly. One can only hope there is.
Last night I had one of those dreams where you dream that you are naked, except I dreamt that I dreamt that I was naked and came to work naked but when someone recounted it to me that indeed I was, I said, I don't think I like my body that much to come to work naked. All in all, I know what the naked dream means, it means you would soon be put to shame. I don't know why it was a dream within a dream though. Maybe it means the dream will not come to be. I already know now that my dreams will not come to be. No SHIT!!
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