naughty girl thoughts all the time

I've been thinking about sex a lot.

I mean, like all the time. In the morning when I wake up, during my drive to work, at work, during my meetings ay work, I mean literally all the time. Ever since that debacle last month I have been consumed with sexual thoughts. I read somewhere that in your 30's you are at your sexual peak, like sexual 30's or whatever they called it, and that explains a lot because I was not this consumed with sex or sexual thoughts in my 20's and I had plenty of it then. Being highly sexed now would not be so bad if there was someone around to exert my energies on. Nope, nada not a peep, no willing participant. I thought men jumped at stuff like this apparently not in America. Not even after my heartfelt email below to one guy I shall quite frankly term now, "asshole attorney guy." If this was the movies and I had sent that letter to some guy, he would come knocking on my door as soon as he was done reading it. And then we would embrace and give each other "punishing kisses". I shit you not that's what they call those type of hungry kisses - punishing kisses. But this is not the movies, this is my life and it sucks and in it you are allowed to be a horny beautiful woman with no one to exert your horny desires on.

I saw a "Rune" reader sometime last week to read my fortune. I've often wondered about that, about how it goes, what will they say. She didn't say anything dynamic. You are exceptionally independent, literally and figuratively and I see you by yourself. Well, you don't say. That is the order of the day, isn't it? You see me by myself but will I continue to be? Will it end at some point? She didn't see love. She saw financial independence and education but no love. She saw hope but not in the love department. I always wonder if they're supposed to tell you good stuff, can they tell you the bad stuff as well?

Anyway, needless to say I am still horny and thinking of sex 24-7. I wonder if they have prayer circles for things like this. How do I banish such thoughts because clearly they are leading me nowhere except to hell. Am I addicted to sex now? But that would assume I am having it and wanting lots of it, like alcohol addiction. But this is the reverse, I am addicted to wanting something I don't currently have.

So that's it, that's my update. A ho-hum Valentine's spent being hopeful for a miracle and thinking (more like pondering) sordid sexual thoughts. Wish you were me?!