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| The Spark that exists pre-Dinner for One |
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| Dinner for One |
What is with relationships? It's like a riddle, that cannot be solved and we are all guessing who's the first to solve it.
It really is all about what feels good to you. If you meet someone, he might not be feeling you, he might be feeling someone else, who is, unfortunately, not feeling him?
In the end, it's all about that spark, that IT factor that makes it feel right. I've always given into that spark and an internal list of attributes of what I want in a man. If that spark is there, it trumps everything. I may have a list of what I want in my ideal man, for example, non-smoker, and then I meet a chain smoker whom I am so attracted to, and I just chuck that attribute and give in. You just go with the spark, forsaking all else, the list, everything. That is it. You don't waste time trying to figure it out, what seems practical, and let your head give in, you just go with it, and ask questions later.
That being said, most times, when you're feeling someone and he's not feeling you back, for me I start to internalize it and wonder what did I do wrong, is it me? Nope, it's not. It's more of that spark, and sometimes, he might be feeling someone who is not feeling him as well. It's an endless vicious circle, that eventually ends up with "right person, right spark." Oh, but it takes forever to work itself out. And for impatient folks like me, forever is quite a while. And in between that forever moment, you just might have lost your mind, or lost hope or lost all faith in the belief that right person, right spark exists, and between you and I, something in me actually doesn't truly believe that it does.
There's compromise, there's right moment, there's timing, there's social status, there's good upbringing, there's opportunity, there's my personal favorite "looks good on paper," there's fuck it I don't care anymore, there's every frustrating thing in between, but not quite right person, right spark. There's just enough bullshit to make you loose your nerve and your faith in love and life. But there's never that it that just puts it all together.
That's just it. That's all.
In the end, it's all about that spark, that IT factor that makes it feel right. I've always given into that spark and an internal list of attributes of what I want in a man. If that spark is there, it trumps everything. I may have a list of what I want in my ideal man, for example, non-smoker, and then I meet a chain smoker whom I am so attracted to, and I just chuck that attribute and give in. You just go with the spark, forsaking all else, the list, everything. That is it. You don't waste time trying to figure it out, what seems practical, and let your head give in, you just go with it, and ask questions later.
That being said, most times, when you're feeling someone and he's not feeling you back, for me I start to internalize it and wonder what did I do wrong, is it me? Nope, it's not. It's more of that spark, and sometimes, he might be feeling someone who is not feeling him as well. It's an endless vicious circle, that eventually ends up with "right person, right spark." Oh, but it takes forever to work itself out. And for impatient folks like me, forever is quite a while. And in between that forever moment, you just might have lost your mind, or lost hope or lost all faith in the belief that right person, right spark exists, and between you and I, something in me actually doesn't truly believe that it does.
There's compromise, there's right moment, there's timing, there's social status, there's good upbringing, there's opportunity, there's my personal favorite "looks good on paper," there's fuck it I don't care anymore, there's every frustrating thing in between, but not quite right person, right spark. There's just enough bullshit to make you loose your nerve and your faith in love and life. But there's never that it that just puts it all together.
That's just it. That's all.
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