Dear People,

Thanksgiving came and went, my life went on but in all that seeming thread of events I haven't felt the need to write anything. I should, I think so damn much so why don't I just write it down instead of thinking about it but whenever the paper comes or the sheets come or as in this case the computer screen, I lose the words in my head and I stare at it mindlessly saying to myself: No one wants to hear the stupid stuff you contort in your head every damn time. And I know it's true. No one does.

I got my first paycheck yesterday. I was happy for about a millisecond until I opened it and saw how much I was getting paid. It isn't as much as I would have it be. I am not a greedy person, I am not, I have never been, but I just have a problem with getting scheduled for only 3 days in a week while somebody else gets more days, more pay and more hours: It is just not fair. I need this money. How on earth am I going to start something with my life if I don't have money. Okay, but I am being greedy now, some weeks ago I had no means of making money no call backs from the millions of resumes I sent out and no clues as to what the next step would be for Christmas or thanksgiving, so I really should be happy with whatever money I get.

I am hoping something else comes up this week. I am hoping and praying for it to. I don't want to be one of those people who is stuck in a job no one has any regard for. I have always been this kind of person who looks down on people who work in places that flip burgers, now, that's what I do. Not that I don't have a college education, I do, I am just stuck in the circumstantial whirlpool of my existence and God teaching me a lesson in humility. I guess now that I have learned the lesson I can hopefully teach all of you and that is: Don't ever thnk because someone works in a lowly job that means you are better thn that person. Nope! Give them the respect they deserve because if you don't the wheel could quite easily turn around and that could just as well be you.

I have said enough for someone who didn't want to talk. Please say a prayer for me that something else comes up. Otherwise I shall just keep praying for myself.