Don't worry good people, I haven't forgotten ye.

Where to begin. I know I have been a little out of it. I haven't as much as updated some sites that I hold most important to me. I haven't sent word to my egroup and I darn well! haven't written about my past month in my Aphie's monthly update. But it will pass. My head is in so many different places now. I am confused, deciding, arranging, figuring things out. Everything is going at the same time. It is not working out so well, but they say in all things do not despair for they Lord art with you. So I am not afraid of faultering. However, I just hope it falls into some symptomatic place so I can write about it all to you guys.

I went CD shopping to cheer me up, I couldn't get myself to buy the BSB CD since I already know all the songs, I actually almost bought their first CD, Can you believe it was on sale? Then, I contemplated Enrique but I heard all his songs online yesterday and hmm, they sounded too electronic. I was moved to get Californication by RHCP, you know I have a thing for Anthony...I don't know why I didn't. Now, I know why I was moved to do that...today's his birthday. Yay! Anthony, Happy Birthday!!

Finally, I got the Dr. Doolittle 2 soundtrack...I know I went all archaic. I wanted "happy" music. It was either that or the Sweet November soundtrack, and I guessed that would be depressing. The movie was. This is a new month and a new attitude, I'll leave depressed for christmas time.

The bad part is that the CD cost me $15. Broke me and I spent $15 on a CD, I feel like I should return it or something, I shouldn't be spending that much...should I? It's still in the wrapper, so it's not too late.

I went acoustic guitar browsing too. It was more expensive than I thought. About $300. Hopefully, when the job comes, I'll get it. I need to play and listen to music too. Get all my creativity out. My CD changer, My boom box, in my car blasting my music get home and string some notes on my guitar.

You can see I have big dreams. What happens to people that have big dreams...they keep on dreaming.