I saw my crush today. I don't know why that is news to report. I saw him and his twin brohter in my store with 2 other women shopping and chilling at the mall. He looked different. He looks so much like his twin I couldn't tell who was who, and who was with which girl. But they both got blond streaks done to their hair and both of the girls they came with looked young, nothing fancy.

However, I know he saw me, he sat infront of my store and stared at me for a long time. The last time I called him and he did that dropping the phone on me gimmick was the week before Thanksgiving. One of those nights when I felt like calling someone I shouldn't have. I suddenly felt ashamed as I saw him. Ashamed that I had stalked him so stupidly like I had, like a teenager which I am so afriad I am not. It was like my alter ego confronting me, my childish, playful stupid alter ego. The least he could have done was say HI and and exchange pleasantries with me for ole' time sake. But he just took his new lady and walked on by.

You know what's weird, I had been looking forward to seeing him for quite a while. Whenever I pass someone with a spiky hair, oblong head or jawline like he has around me, I wonder, can this be he?

I have obsessions issues, I accept.