Well, the weekend is officially over. One episode of Six Feet Under and that's it.

I ended it with spoiling myself with this month's issue of GQ that has (surprise, surprise) Keanu on the cover in a very factual fuck-you kind of interview. I like it that he swears at will, I just may incorporate that into Simple Kind of Life. Why do I see that story in production somewhere, sometime, why? Am I kidding myself or is it a sign? Every time they mention how totally un-Hollywood he is and how kind, amiable, humble and generous he is, I say to myself, I knew that, even without reading all these stuff. You can tell from those eyes, I never read eyes wrong. It's a pity I may never get to read them in person, but that's a whole other obsessive story, I won't go into right now

Matrix 2---$135 million in 4 days, Super! If I only had 5% of that it would be more super. Someone must be smiling to the bank right now, and that someone ain't me, sadly.

I did go to church, and I bought a couple of things for my big move. It feels so good, somewhat, and so scary too. But with all things in life that have do with a transition especially one like this that is not gradual, there is some element of fear involved in it.

I am not gonna kid you, it is going to be a long 2 weeks. I have just blown my entire pay check and the week hasn't even begun. I get scared that I can't manage financially and I don't have fun at my job. I have fun with my co-workers but I am constantly in fear that if I don't do it well, something will happen. Why? Also, I am leaving one side of my heart open to the possibility of that interesting, meaningful existence to come and sweep me away from oblivion at any minute. Is that too much to ask?

I pray for my inner peace, for strength to build my heart, for purpose and generosity of heart and spirit, and for God to please make this world a better place for us all. The economy needs his resurrecting hand, and our hearts need upliftment, I ask the Lord today for a purposeful journey towards this rocky road of life.

Amen!