I have been a bad girl by not updating you all on some things. Some of them quite important, focal points of my life:

1) I signed the lease to the sugarloaf parkway residence.
2) I actually got accepted to their little bourgeoise repoertoire.
3) I just bought my furniture--sofa, love seat, coffee table and bar table with chairs.
4) I put forward another sizeable amount for the deposit on the lease.
5) Need I say that I am broke.
6) I am turning 29 in 5 days time.

I am so overwhelmed by it all. You know how you become so used to people telling you it's going to fail and then at a point you are striving so hard not to that to a certain extent every move you make is preceded and haunted by the thought that you just might.

I know I don't want to. I know I should have faith. I know I should just trust the Lord in His guidance above everything else. I just can't help thinking these thoughts and letting them consume me.

There's this bit in the Bible that says worry is the result of lack of faith. We don't want to do that.

I am asking God to strengthen my fauth, my work, my hold on this earth. To make me stronger in my beliefs, in knowing that he takes care of every single worry I have and He will never let me down. No matter what. He won't let me down.

Thees I ask of thee O Lord and my safe passage into my 29th year in this world you've put me in.

Amen.