I am basically nursing all these feelings right now.
Bored: Work is slow (thank God) but that's not why I am bored I am because all my contacts have failed to contact me so it leaves me bored to bits. No challenge, per se.
Upset: One of my oldest friends (the 30 year old virgin from previous post) has taken to being cynical and lame, and judgmental and angry. To the extent I could ignore it when she tells me what cynical remark she made to B person, but when cynical remark is made to me, it's upsetting. I have chosen to declutter her from my life.
Anger: Self-doubt, pissed, mad at a situation you cannot change, you did not determine, you wish you had handled differently, and just hoping there was a chance to go back in time (where's a time machine when you need one?)
Bloated: My stomach has taken to blowing up whenever I eat a little bite of food, it's pathetic.
More Anger: A mixture of my anger and upset feelings about my friend has just accumulated to one bitter angry person.
*snarls*
I know I shouldn't be bothered by what people say or how mean people are, no matter how you try to help them but when it's one of your oldest friends, and she knows you are the only one in a long line of friends to even speak to her, I just feel as if I deserve more. end rant.
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