I am at the office a little late today, unavoidable traffic plus I left a little late today. I am thinking of sending my boss an email asking if I can come to work at 9:30 instead of 9, gives me at least 30 minutes to avoid the traffic rush downtown. Today's was a bummer, good thing I had breakfast whilst in it.

Between now and the last entry, I have:

Gone to the gym twice. I have more energy now than I did before. I did the step climber equipment thing at my gym for 26 mins, there was a time I couldn't last 10 mins on that thing. I also went to my cardio kickboxing class last night so I have completed the chain of exercise for this week.

I have also taken that test twice. Once last night and then this morning, couldn't pass up the early morning urine test which they say always gives the best results. Both times it read NEGATIVE. I have decided to just wait on the period and not think about it AT ALL. If it comes, yeah, that would be good, if I am pregnant, not so good, but it is not the end of the world. I have spent too much time and money and just heartache thinking this through ten ways from Sunday. This is not the end of my life, I am old enough to have a kid, geez! someone would think I was 17 or something.

I have also spoken to Uninteresting Guy about it. He called me Monday night and when I told him as succintly as I could manage, he was speechless. He said I had every right to worry but he was just speechless about the whole thing. He has called several times since then but since I've been "living" at the gym now it's been hard to speak to him. I may call him from the office--me feeling bad that I am putting him in that position. He didn't sound too happy about his life though, I don't know what's going on with that. Why do I care? He is not my husband, and hopefully I shall not bear his child, but I just care.

This reminds me of Jennifer Syme and Keanu. They had broken up and a few months later, she found out she was pregnant. Can you imagine how hard it must have been for her to make that call to him saying, "Hey, just when I thought it was over with us, now I am expecting your child." This is somewhat similar except, Keanu is the intense hunk that he is and I would much rather be having his child this day, today anytime in my life and Jennifer lost the baby and died, tragically. However, I've been thinking about her since it happened. You can only remember someone when you are in somewhat of the same situation as they've been in. Cos' believe me it was a hard discussion to have with the Uninteresting one on Monday.

It's 30 minutes, time to get back to work.