Pros and Cons - Le Baby

I fear I may be pregnant.

It isn't so bad right, having a child without a husband. After all, I am almost 30, a little financially independent, and lonely. It would be nice to have tiny tot of my own. Those are the pros that are going through my head right now.

The cons are many: I haven't spoken to Uninteresting guy in close to a month, after our sexual escapade and in my quest for a new job I felt the powers that be ask me: which would you prefer to work out, a new job or your relationship with Uninteresting guy. This is a no brainer, of course its a new job, more pay and everything I ever wanted. Now, here I am looking for my period. It is a about a week late. I don't want to have a kid for a man I do not care about and who I am sure does not care about me, I would traumatize that poor child. Besides, I have been drinking alcohol, coffee, etc, all the things an expectant mom should keep away from if she wants her kids to be normal. This cannot be happening to me. How would I explain to my family? Who is the father and why did you have unprotected sex with a man you hardly know? I can't explain it to myself AT ALL.

I just want to get out of this without feeling as if I hate children or what not, because I do not, I love them even though they come to you at the least opportune time. I just have a lot going on in my life right now, I can't explain where this child would fit in. What happens to Mr. Right, what if he finally decides to show up and is wondering why are you with another man's child? Really why?

I have decided that if I am I shall tell my family the condom broke. The usual lie and I shall say I did it cos I got tired of being by myself I wanted a little baby to keep me company. But the thing is I told them, as well as you and everyone else that I couldn't stand the Uninteresting one, how can I come now to say, Yes I slept with him. It's gory and reeks of Urrgh!

I am just pleading inside me, and to God to please help me get out of this. I don't have the symptoms of a pregnant person. Asides from the constant running tommy I have, I don't feel nauseous, tired, sensitive breasts, heavy, backache, etc. I don't have any of those instead I have so much energy that I work out now more than I used to in the past. So where's my period?