The entire apartment doesn't look like I am moving. It has an uncertain distaste to it. Everything that I use everyday is packed so I am uncomfortable, and everything that I absolutely need is not packed, which I find quite amusing because this means that I shall be running around helter skelter on Friday morning trying to put them away when the movers get here. In other words, it is neither livable nor lived in. There is a huge amount of cobweb build up at my door and I don't really care, I just wish it is still there when we do the final walk through and I hand them their keys so I can tell them that is one of the reasons why I was so put off by the place. Cobwebs build up at a door that I use everyday. Amazing! Alas, I speak now, but the new place might be just as bad. There might be cockroach buildup. I think it is this fear that consumes me so much that I am devoid of excitement at changing environment. Like I said before everything new doesn't always seem like it is better. Everything I have looked forward to has felt like a crestfallen heap. Nothing has lived up to expectation. So Keanu wherever you are, I hope you are all that I dream of and more. I know I am not but that's beside the point.
I thought this entry would be about my career thoughts and the notable envy that has engulfed ever since I realized that everyone else around me is getting a new improved job except me. My sister in law, my friends online and in real life, everyone except me. It's like how am I supposed to pretend to be excited for them when I wish the job were for me instead.
It's time to go to bed. I am seriously resisting the urge to buy a new TV for myself. How big of an urge is it, so big. The only thing stopping me is this shaky job and my forbearance of it.
The good news is at least you all didn't have to wait a whole week for another entry.
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