I just need a little of your time

I loved the incredible love story in the Incredible Hulk. It seemed genuine to me. In some ways it reminded me of the American Werewolf in London, that underneath this incredible beast is this warm person that connects with only one person and that one person is able to tame him, calm him and quell his rage. I particularly enjoyed the scene where Liv Tyler's Betty catches a glimpse of Bruce Banner in the pizza parlor. She is having a conversation with her current love but just a glimpse of Bruce ends that conversation, she just stops, and moves towards him, she completely ignores her current love, and halts everything to go find him. It reminds me of me. If the time ever came and I was killing time with someone and he (KR, Shola, doesn't matter either one will do) came along, all bets are off, I would instantaneously end whatever it is that I am in to completely devote myself to him. It's just that simple. Whoever wrote that piece must have been in that kind of situation or met me.

So why this update? The weekend was ho-hum. It's sad going into the weekend broke is not a good thing. Lately, I've been striking out dirt in the men department. Nothing seems to be working. And then of course, there's the CNN asswipe. I am in like with a complete idiot. I don't know what's wrong with me? We went through the same round of text messages last night, initiated by yours truly. I asked to call him in a bit and he said he would call me but of course he didn't, and I don't think at the time he said that he was planning to. It's just rejection of something you haven't even tried. All I wanted to do was talk, to talk to him, to try and have a decent conversation, like Jill Scott said, "Let's take a long walk." I just wanted to talk, and if we have nothing to talk about, then...we should both stop randonmly calling each other and call it quits. But he didn't call and I didn't want to turn to Glenn Close so I didn't call either. I just spent the evening hating myself for even trying. I just haven't had someone reject me without even trying it out. Because quite frankly, there's nothing he can give me, not money, not love, not romance, maybe just some of his time and probably a whole lot of sex (possibly mediocre sex, we'll never know). But that's about it. So why am I in this laborious, borderline Glenn Close state, pray tell? I just haven't had someone reject me without trying it out. At least try it out, if you figure we have nothing in common, or something doesn't sound right, then reject me not right off the bat....meanwhile you are supposedly single.

In other news, work sucks but what else is new. See how my life pans out!!!