I had another round of desperate text message exchanges with CNN guy last night. I don't know what's wrong with me. It is a sad thing when you like someone, it's like they can do no wrong and they punish you liking them. You want to hate them, and really they are not deserving of any good thing from you, but you just end up falling and pursuing them all over again like a desperate teenager. I just feel like all the strength and willpower I built up during the weekend was torn down because of my attempts at luring him to my house, none of which worked and all of which had me awake until 5am this morning. In the end I had to confess to him at 3AM:
Thx for getting me all hot and bothered. I'm sure you've figured that I like you even tho I don't know why and I wish I didn't. Let me know when you want to do something.
Needless to say that last line should have read: It must feel good being the asshole of the year. But it didn't. And I still think no matter how honest the text was, he will still not get a clue.
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