Problem with the Exes

Had a very interesting evening with "attorney" guy yesterday.

For some strange reason for the first time since we've been "talking" to each other, I actually found him attractive. Maybe it was the tight t-shirt or his bulging biceps, or the enthusiasm with which he greeted me. Whatever it was, it was not good, because needless to say, I went to 3rd base with him.(That is the base before the actual activity, right?) Someone was a bad girl!

But before then, I felt like I should lay down some ground rules on the forthcoming copulation. I had to essentially ask that in the event that we do copulate, I do not want him to copulate with anyone else in between. The fact that I had to say that, ask that you'd be faithful in our assumed "casual" relationship, is not a good sign. It is not a "good look" at all. He felt that if he was attracted to someone else while he was with me, it would require him to ask for permission from me to pursue that, to step out on me. Yes. That is True. For human decency sake, you cannot step out, it's not control, it's just me being old-fashioned and decent. Those were the odds, you either accept or get the hell out.

Then, we went to another topic. As of 2 and half weeks ago, he's been with his ex-girlfriend. I've known him for a month. What is with men and going back to their exes? First he went to the movies with someone about 3 weeks ago and then, he "copulated" with his ex. According to him, she prefers to shag him, go back to the past (shit, as I term it) instead of step into the future. There's a reason an ex is an ex, it's a pity this girl and "attorney" guy don't seem to realize this.

I thought long and hard about this last night, with a rational, less horny mind. I need to step out of this. I've had a bad history with guys and their exes, it's always something about you not being able to compete with the astounding chemistry they have with their exes and then they kick you to the curb, heartbroken.

I am going to try to take myself out of this equation. I know I may say this and bah! the next thing I find him remotely attractive, there was a time I couldn't fathom the thought of kissing him, now see me. But I will try, and if I fail I am only human, right!