One of my favorite movies in life is A Beautiful Mind. When people ask me, what's your favorite movie I think that's a loaded question because I like movies for different things, different scenes in a movie make sense than the whole. But a Beautiful Mind spoke to me for a couple of reasons one of them came to mind this week with the recent passing of John and Alicia Nash.
There’s this scene where John Nash is mumbling after taking his future wife, Alicia to some dance, he's not a very coherent, fun date so she takes him outside to look at the stars, but he's still mumbling. She puts her hand on his chest and says, feel this, she says quietly in that soft assertive and reassuring tone that just secures her that Oscar nod, "John, look at me, I need to know from you that something extraordinary is possible."
That just quiets his mumbling. and I daresay it quiets me too.
I often ask myself that too. I also ask God. Is something extraordinary possible? Every time I'm faced with a life decision or something doesn't make sense in my chaotic life, I ask, is there a point to this. Is there? I need to know. I stop and hold my chest and ask God, "God, I know this doesn’t seem like it makes sense right now, and I don't why I'm doing it, but...I need to believe from you, that something extraordinary is always possible?" And I try to quiet my mind and meditate and think through the decision and pray about the path that I've taken. So many things we do, sometimes God is not in agreement with it but we do it anyway, and so many times I've done that thinking, "He's with me, I know for sure He is." But truly, He probably sure wasn't in agreement and left you to go fumbling in the dark, places you don't need to be. Whenever I get to those points, where I feel it was an "Anita decision" not an "Anita in the Spirit" decision, I stop, and say, "I know God this may have been all me, I agree but I need to believe from You that something extraordinary will come out of this Anita decision."
Results have varied.
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