And so we pray

I suddenly feel the need to say a prayer tonight.

I don't know why, perhaps slightly because I woke up this morning without praying, I spent about an hour and a half daydreaming that I was stuck in this love triangle, that is me as Shelia in a love triangle with Ke and Vin, Me dating Vin but having Ke secretly want me, I guess that was my subdued prayer inside. However, in between all that stupidity, mostly mine, I thought to myself that once I got to the nice conclusion where I would have to choose--a decision I don't think I can manage even in real life-- and surprise surprise at who gets chosen, and when the daydream ends then would I commit the day that I have started off nicely to God. That time never came because the dream went on and on, and then my nieces started to cry and I woke up abruptly. So you see I had good intentions in there somewhere, though my mind couldn't get past the image I had concocted of Vin screwing me and whispering with his deep voice how good I felt. I am a bad, bad girl.

So now that the day has started and my long winded and uncertain week is ahead of me, which is so scary cos' you all know how my week can be, I feel the need to say a prayer.

Dear Lord, Words cannot begin to express, how much I pray that this week in my life is committed into God's hands, I pray that You shall remember me, commit my problem which has been recited ever so often that you must be tired of hearing it, commit it to fruition dear Lord, and remember me in Your blessings, in your goodness and in everything that I do not represent, make me a light of Your peace and I shall continually remain indebted to You for my life.

Forgive me all my transgressions and stupidity and protect me and my family from all evil. 

Amen.