It is a new week, and my phone hasn't rung and several other things. This time I decided to take the job search thing a little seriously and then not so seriously as to let it consume me as it did last time. I worked on my cover letters muchly and then I actually took time out to buy the Sunday paper. Nothing new! I think because I don't have a fax machine and all the other jobs require either a fax or an email I am losing out on some things. Who would care to look through their emails when they have loads of pages of faxes to go through...that's what I think anyway.

Moreso, I think my personal interviewing skills are shitty. I don't do it so good, like my sister said maybe I freeze up or I just don't sound interested enough. I think I am looking at the "get me in and I'll prove it to you" aspect of the job hunt thing instead of the "I can tell you all the bullshit now but on the job I may not be that good at it."

I hate to talk about this every fucking week, you know. Every week I am obsessing about changing my life, going somewhere there's happinness, doing something much more interesting than I am doing now. I hate to obsess about it. Perhaps I was born an unhappy person, or a perenially discontent person because I constantly am. The latest obsession is to move back to Europe now, get a job working at the West End and surely happiness would come from it somehow. Maybe, maybe not.

I started working on my stories, the Simple Kind of life ones, I read the one on Depression, somehow that story hit so close to home considering what I went through last week, it's like it was a premonition of that week and subsequent weeks, or months in my life to come. And I must have written 2 years ago. So I was sad even back then. Was there ever a time I was happy? Really?

The good news is, Google rated my Keanu stories among the top 5 Keanu websites. Yay! for me. I actually beat out websites that had been in operation longer than mine and do get updated more frequently than I do. I guess that was the motivation I needed to start working on the website again.

There's a lot more to talk about but I gotta work today.