It's been a while. A little crushed that no one responded to my group announcement below. But shook it off.

Today I decided to fix my car. Just a little tune up since my journey to work is rather longer and across many more highways than it was before I decided to do some work on it. Little work turned out to be costing me: $300 and change.

I can't figure that car out. Ever since it started to give me trouble, my sister said I should start shopping around for a new one. Since I've spent quite a bit of change doing this one up, I could trade it in for some change and get a reasonably better one, while working out some kinda deal on the difference.

However, I haven't wanted to, for certain reasons:

1) I know I do not have credit whatsoever. After being rejected for one too many credit cards I know where I stand on the credit line level, so I don't want to have to look around and find something I like, and have someone tell me NO. This is not like the situation with the Laptop where Dell said no, and I said Fuck you and paid cash for it, this is money I do not have and I cannot afford. AT ALL.

2) I didn't have a steady job. I still do not somehow. I just started my new job, not even 2 weeks old in it, so a car is somewhat of a luxury for me now. I haven't yet established myself in the job, so this isn't the time to be going into expensive ventures.

3) Finding something you cannot afford but you want so much just makes you sadder than when you started out.


So, today I came by one, I really liked. It was a small sized Toyota Jeep, RAV 4, I think, a little bigger than the Honda CRV. It was excellent. I just loved it wholeheartedly. I couldn't help it, the interiors, the year was close too, 2001, and the mileage was agreeable to me. Most of all, it has a 6 CD changer installed. But the monthly on it, is so out of my league, so outta my league, I couldn't begin to make that kind of money in this lifetime.

However, that is my dilemma. This comes after reading that Keanu bought all the Stunt members of his Matrix crew Harley Davidsons. Hmmm...what problems I need solving in this life, a guardian angel is very mch requested for at this rate.