E! Online is doing an E! True Hollywood story of Keanu coming in the Fall.

Am I excited about it?

HECK YEAH!

A little perturbed though about some things that may be revealed, somehow I do not want to know that much about him, all those behind the scenes details that they uncover, may not be good. The element of mystery that shrouds him arouses me more. And I just do not see him as the kind that would sit in a chair and narrate some tales from his past. He just doesn't feel that "open" about himself. But I may be wrong. Nevertheless, I shall tape it and watch it over and over.

I went to see my oldest friend today. Everything about that visit was wrong, so wrong. I just felt inadequate and I felt she felt inadequate, she kept looking for stuff wrong with my life just so she could use it as her means to feel better about herself around me. Then, she went on and on about my car, how come it's new, let's see it. She made such a fuss about it I turned red. But I haven't changed, I don't feel like I am over and above anyone because I have a new car and I live in my own apartment. I am still me. I don't want to be a proud person, I shall hate myself if I ever turn that way, and you don't have to feel inadequate around me because this is not the pinnacle of me. This is just 10%, there is more I hope for and I know with the Lord watching over me, it shall come to be. But to feel defensive, inert jealousy, and just inadequate around me is cutting it a bit too early.

After a very uncomfortable conversation which lasted about 30 minutes, she looked into my car and said: (Big sigh) the only thing missing from your car is a baby seat. A husband and then, that baby seat in the back.

She doesn't even know me and that just makes me sad. I wasted my time thinking I had a friend who understood me. After 18 years, she doesn't even know me.

I trust we shall still talk and she shall still make a big deal about where I am now, and maybe she may shed a tear or two about it. But as she does so am I...because this is just 10%, a lot more could be possible and hopefully shall come to be. I shall shed a tear hoping I don't lose what I have whilst I gently climb the ladder, with my eye on the prize egging it on to the top.

Here's to a good week, God's blessings and protection and His loving kindness in my life, keeping me grounded and Peaceful.