Put it in Writing

I decided to put this in here.

Sometimes I want something and I don't actually know what it is that I want, I cant put my finger on it, it might be a feeling, or a nurturing, but I don't know what it is, but I often know that what I have is not what I want and it makes me unhappy. I often tell my family that I am not a happy person and they wonder and say: "But you have all this stuff...a, b, and c, how can you not be happy?" Then, I stop and wonder I know I have a, b, and c, but I want something, I don't know if that would make me happy but it would complete the chain of events and that is what I want.

Someone once said, try to verbalise that. Put it in writing, solidify it, so that way when I pray, or aim for something in life I can actually know what I am aiming for, it would take the place of a GOAL.

One of the things is gonna grace these pages today, and it is one of the things I have been thinking about recently.

MY JOB.

What kind of company I would like to work for.

After working for two small companies back to back with the staff of co-workers decreasing I would like to work for one of those big law firms, with senior partners, junior partners, and associates, and secretaries, and paralegals and the whole shebang. It would have longevity, prestige, and the benefits would be off the roof, most of all hopefully, it would offer tuition reimbursement which I could use right about now. The small companies are too stingy, not enough interaction with the staff cos there hardly is any and I am just so sick of being the person who is supposed to do everything, secretarial, admin, assistant, etc wise. It's just too much responsibility for too little money, and not enough respect, that holds not much promise, nothing should hurt that much. There should be some amount of balance, a lot of work, then a lot of money, or a lot of benefits, or hold tremendous opportunity, something, should equal it out, right now the scale is way too tipped and it's not in my favor.

That's my story for today.

And hopefully when this falls into place, I can actually work enough to afford to take that vacation in Europe, who knows?

Only God knows really, and I hope He is listening.