i want to pray

I want to pray for two key things, in addition to all the other prayers that I have laid at God's feet. One of which is a second of God's time.

I pray that my registering for this exam this week is not one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I pray that God consoles me and reinvigorates me as I prepare for the exam, more so that I understand easily what I am reading. I pray that this is the first big step for me and I can stay dedicated to it long enough.

The second thing is that God finds me the job I am looking for. I have looked for so long that I don't even know what I am looking for right now. I pray that whatever it is, He knows me best, knows how fragile my temperament is, and that He searches and finds that almost perfect fit for me, and in that fit that I am happy, content and rewarded handsomely. And that I feel like I am doing meaningful work. I haven't felt that way in such a long time.

And that whatever disappointment that may come to me this week, though I don't pray for any, but considering this is me we are talking about, that whatever disappointment may come to me, that I take it in the best stride. In loving kindness I pray, Amen.