I keep waiting for the explanation.
I keep checking my horoscope, tarot card readings, praying fervently to the holy spirit for anything that can reveal to me a reason, an explanation for the complete and utter aboutface I've received from Trouble. When I call him when he does answer, we argue, he says mean things, and I am just puzzled, completely baffled by it all. I keep referring to my life before the puzzle and after the puzzle, i.e., pre-madness and post-madness. When I was happy and when I was not filled with confusion. It's like this train wreck. I keep waiting for the curtain to open, slightly even, for the Tarot cards, the heavens to tell me, the curtain will open at this time or this is why it happened. Just something that will explain this mind boggling dilemma. It's the riddle of it all that's so shocking, hurtful, crazy to me. Nothing else. I could live with us fighting and then eventually going our separate ways but this complete aboutface, it's like Satan came down and has refused to leave. I know, move on seems about appropriate at this time, yeah, I can, but can we solve this riddle?
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